Foolproof

Vill inte att vissa människor ska vara så långt bort. Längtar så till hösten, jag ska till Valeria och dricka en flaska vin på hennes bakgård (dvs stranden) vare sig jag kommer in eller inte!

Kanske lite mera fancy med vinglas istället för direkt ur flaskan, men jag är inte den som är den :P

Detta hände för exakt en månad och en dag sen:

Detta hände igår:

Samma fingrar med skillnaden att för en månad sen brände jag mig på en stekpanna och igår så skar jag mig på en väldigt vass kniv. Så nu är jag förbjuden ifrån att vara nära ugnen (då jag brände mig på armen), spisen (för en månad sen) och alla knivar (igår).

Today is not a good day. I am way to stressed and upset about an email which I dont seem to get an answer to. Finished writing an assignment which didn't turn out so good. But as my friend Johan says "Sometimes you got to say fuck it"

So I am now gonna tell you a little bit about my faith, or non-faith for that matter. I don't believe in god, but I am not an Atheist, I am an Agnostic. Which you should know is when you believe in something and you don't know exactly what. I believe in a power of love.  And that's it. It works in a kinda hinduistic way, meaning that if you give out love, you get love back. Though not always in the way you expect. Also that when you die you do go to a better place, not heaven. Just a better place. But there's nothing there after you die. It's a bit contradictory but it doesn't matter since I don't really care about it that much. Life is here and life is now. So that's what you need to worry about.

The trip to Estonia and Latvia was awesome. We got to see so much stuff. We were in Riga, Kothla Järve, Narva, Tartu, Valga, Valka, Riga and some other small cities but it was a lot just to see in a week. I still haven't processed everything just yet. We walked around exploring the cities, we were into a mine, on the top of a Stalinbuilding, on the Russiian boarder. So great. And as usual when you come home again you feel a bit empty. A lot empty. I could have been gone at least a week more to explore Lithuania as well. So now I have to go there. I have never really been interested in the Baltics no more than just to go there to buy cheap alcohol and to party but this trip really opened up my eyes to the Baltics, especially Riga. I love Riga. It's an amazing town with awesome buildings and great people and great beer.

It's not hard at all to pick one moment. But I will try. I wanna bring you back to the week I turned 18. It was an awesome week. First on the exact day I turned 18 I did something I've wanted to do since I was 14, I pierced my tounge.

So this is how that happened:

First you talk with the person who's preforming it.

Then he cleans your tounge, and as you can see I allready had a piercing in my eyebrow (which I really miss) and I got that one when I was 16.

He then squeezes your tounge together with a metal thing

Then the needle is pushed through

Then he inserted the jewelry that you have through your tounge.

Then you're happy and pierced.

Then your tounge swells up to twice the original size and you can't talk for a week.

Two days later it was time for the first tattoo.

It's very important to see how the stencil of the tattoo looks from all angles to be sure it looks like it's supposed to.

Maybe consult with an other tattoo artist to see what he thinks (and Valeria who's standing on the chair)

If you like it, then you get it tattooed on you

And today 4 years later it's still there and wonderful.

Then if you like tattoos, you will always get more...

I love my piercing and tattoos and the moment you get it, it's extremly painful sometimes (your ribs and inner upper arms are quite sensitive, but the back didn't hurt) but you need to remember that one short moment of pain is equal to an eternity of glory haha

I have some close friends which I love very much and instead of telling you about them I will show them :) some are old friends and some are new and some live way too far away :P

Mads

Barrometer

Valle

Müslie

I don't actually have that many friends and most of them have moved away but I don't mind. I like my friends and I prever quality instead of quantity.

Today has been a slow day. I woke up at 8:00 at stayed in bed watching tv until 09:00, watching Vakna med the Voice, which is not quite as good as it used to be. Then I got up. Ate breakfast, a semla. Then I watched some moew tv. Picked up a few stuff from the floor. Sufred a bit online. Listened to some music. Then I thought it was a good time to actually do something so I got out of my pyjamas and into some real clothes and smeared on some make up. I was gonna take my leather jacket to school but it was too windy so I took my new winterjacket. Then I was planing on walking to school but due to the fact that my high heels  are not a good combo with the ice on the ground, I took the bus. I got to school and sat down with Annica and Johan. Worked a little bit on an essay and finished it. I went to the computer room at uni and printed it out and handed it in. I met Emilia and we talked a bit and then Emilia and Johan went home and me and Annica are still at school. My dad called and hopefully he will come and visit sometime this weekend :) I have been here at school for like 5 hours and done about 15 minutes of work. That's effective I tell you.

Now Fredrik called to say he is on his way here to pick me up in the new car :D awesome!

So here I am. And something smells really bad here, like something is burned but Annica and I can't really find out what it is.

What is love? Not an easy qestion to answer. Love for me can exist in very different way. The love you feel for friends, boyfriends, family is all different from each other. The love for friends you could argue is the most diversed one when there are different levels of love for different friends. Some friends are like boyfriends. You miss them when they are not here, something happens and you can't wait to tell them, you stick with them through bad and good times. For me friendship love is not hanging out and talking 10 times a day, it is when it doesn't matter if you have not heard from each other in a while and instead of being mad of not calling once a week you are just happy to hear their voice. It is unconditional.

Which I think it's the main word for all love. It is unconditional in that way that it doesn't matter what happens, it will still always be there. Though that doesn't mean that you don't have to treat it with care. It is still a delecate thing and love is a form of relationship, both parts must charish it and work towards making it work. Love is hard and easy at the same time. It's hard to define but I am one of those who easily fall in love with everything.

I don't think I will come up with anything smart to say after babbeling this much. Love is almost as hard to define as the meaning of life. You don't have to do anything to love, but to get love you have to care and be good to the people you want it from. I am not a believer of tough love haha :P

Semlor is yummy :)

They taste better than they look :P

It doesn't matter if I get in or not. I am going to go to Cali to visit the best girl in the world, Valeria. I hate the fact that she has left Sweden. I hate that she will be hours away and the time difference makes it impossible to just give a quick call or to text about stupid people who you meet out on clubs. It was great seeing her this weekend in Örnsköldsvik. Everything from just siting talking and drinking wine, to dancing and refucing to talk anything but english to norwegian guys. Fly safe my friend and as you said. See you on the other side.

While I was licking stamps with the king on my dad actually met a real royalty, Prince Harry of England. He met him in a security check in some millitary base somewhere in england. How awesome isn't that?

My dad's new best friend

It's not every day you get to lick the king. I don't think I will ever be as close to him as I am now.

If they dont want you to make jokes about him, they should most definitly not put him on stamps...

At school, again. In lärarhuset, again. But I like it here it is open and definitly not quiet. Can't stand when it's quiet, makes me nervous when I am studying. Right now there's a guy playing piano here and he is really good. There's almost always someone here playing piano but their level of talent can vary from really bad to really good. And sometimes people are singing and that is almost always bad, though yesterday there was a good girl singing. But as long as the music is played well it's good but when they suck you just wanna scream and throw stuff at them. Though I'd never do that.

Starting to see the light in the end of the tunnel for this weeks assignments :P

This is a really interesting topic due to the fact that I have the worst eating habits in the world, almost. I love candy and cookies, basically anything sweet. And since it's only lunch hour right now I havent eaten that much today so I will write about what I ate yesterday.

Breakfast: I was late for school so I didn't eat any breakfast, I ate lunch for breakfast

Lunch: Since I at lunch were really hungry and I forgot my food at home I bought a tuna sandwich at the cafeteria. And a chocolate ball. Yummy

Snack: Another chocolate ball, so delicious.

Dinner: 4 smaller sandwiches with butter, marmelade and cheese. And a few bites of Fredriks dinner (rice and chicken).

So it was not that bad actually. Almost three meals and not all of them were candy :P

Well I think I got pretty normal parents. They're divorced since less than a year back.

My dad is a very warm person and he cant sit still for two seconds. He likes engines and anything attatched to them and sometimes it seems like he has unlimited knowledge about them.

My mom is also a very loving person, but she doesn't like cars and is more interested in abstrac things like healing and spirituality.

Even though I don't always get along with my parents and we might not always work towards the same goal we function together and I love them.

My first real love I'd say would be Louka. We met online on some community and I fell for his humor and selfconfidence. He is the kind of guy that makes you like him and to think he is the most amazing guy in the world even though that's not really what you really think but just because he thinks that he is that kind of guy. Plus I thought he looked really good with a really warm smile and eyes that I could back then drown in. We started talking a lot on msn, every day and for several hours each day. I shared stuff with him that I hadn't told anyone and he still accepted me. When he came here to meet me for the first time I was so nervous. I have never been so nervous still to this day. Months passed and there was a lot of traveling back and forth. We broke up and got together again and after that it was never the same again and after a year he broke up for the final time. I got desperate when he was slipping further and further away, trying to hold on to what I thought we had. In the end it was just fighting, I can see that now but I couldn't back then. It was a good first love actually. I was devestated when he broke up. But we were way too young to have that serious relationship. Though we had many great moments and without Louka I would never have traveled as much as I actually have, so I guess I owe him that. We still talk from time to time and he seems happy, which is good :)

Louka in Les Menuires in the end of 2005 or the start of 2006, the only picture I can find atm.

Well, this is simple. I am 22 years old, still feel like 16 but being legaly able to drink. I like to read books, and I am almost addicted to my books sometimes. I live in Umeå with my bf and fiance. Hopefully I will get my bachelor degree in a few months and then I will go out to see the world.

I wont write more here, just since this was boring haha :p

Well this is something as the headings say to distract me from the stress which I am now feeling. Cant really talk 'cause I am so stressed, just as Fred :P

Aparently this is something you should do one topic each day but I am gonna do them when I feel like it, so maybe many topics today and none tomorrow. But we will see.

Dag 01 – Om mig

Dag 02 – Min första kärlek

Dag 03 – Mina föräldrar

Dag 04 – Det här åt jag i dag

Dag 05 – Vad är kärlek?

Dag 06 – Min dag

Dag 07 – Min bästa vän

Dag 08 – Ett ögonblick

Dag 09 – Min tro

Dag 10 – Det här hade jag på mig i dag

Dag 11 – Mina syskon

Dag 12 – I min handväska

Dag 13 – Den här veckan

Dag 14 – Det roligaste jag vet

Dag 15 – Mina drömmar

Dag 16 – Min första kyss

Dag 17 – Mitt favoritminne

Dag 18 – Min favoritfödelsedag

Dag 19 – Detta ångrar jag

Dag 20 – Den här månaden

Dag 21 – Ett annat ögonblick

Dag 22 – Det här upprör mig

Dag 23 – Det här får mig att må bättre

Dag 24 – Det här får mig att gråta

Dag 25 – En första

Dag 26 – Mina rädslor

Dag 27 – Min favoritplats

Dag 28 – Det här saknar jag

Dag 29 – Mina ambitioner

Dag 30 – Ett sista ögonblick